Taylor Armstrong: I Miss Russell Armstrong Terribly

February 6, 2012 By:
Taylor Armstrong: I Miss Russell Armstrong Terribly

It's book time. After her abusive, estranged husband's tragic but bizarre suicide, rumors began surfacing that Taylor Armstrong was planning to write a book. We all shrugged it off as just a rumor because, who would write a book only six months after something so terrible?

Turns out Taylor Armstrong would, and after what she's reportedly been through, I think people are confused as to whether they should blame her or not.

The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star has had a highly controversial year, and there are a lot of mixed feelings about her experience, which sounds like it was ripped straight from a Lifetime TV movie.

In Hiding From Reality, Taylor writes in detail about the abuse she received from Russell. In particular, Taylor says she was “on my knees, hanging over a toilet with my jaw not in the place it was supposed to be, and there was saliva running out of my mouth and I was thinking to myself, 'How am I not going to call an ambulance? How am I going to protect him? I don't want him to go to jail. How am I going to get my jaw back into place?'”

Armstrong also says that she misses Russell, possibly even misses being abused, because she doesn't know how to react with the freedom to make her own decisions.

“I love him to this day and miss him terribly,” Armstrong said. “The good times were the best I've ever had and the worst times were the worst I've ever had".

Armstrong adds that her decision to be on a reality show made her feel protected.

“Subconsciously, I thought that the cameras would provide some protection. In a restaurant, people don't act out. They act out at home. And so I thought with millions of people watching, he's never going to act out.”