E! host Giuliana Rancic has been incredibly brave during her entire public battle with breast cancer, but admits that she fears for her upcoming double mastectomy.
"[I'm scared] just of the unknown," says Rancic, "I've never been through anything like this. I'm scared of waking up and the pain. I do hear it's a painful recovery, so I worry about that."
Rancic decided that she would have her double mastectomy with immediate reconstructive surgery before 2011 is over.
"It's a great time to do it," she tells Us Weekly, "I'll be recovering during the holidays. It's kind of quiet, and my family - and of course [my husband] Bill will be with me, so it's great."
Her husband, Bill Rancic, who should be given the award for most supportive husband of the year says he and Giuliana are looking forward to 2012 to put her battle with breast cancer behind them. Giuliana reveals that with a mastectomy there's "less than a one percent chance [the cancer] would every reoccur," says Giuliana.
With incredible odds like that, Giuliana should go into 2012 worry free and her hubby echoes that sentiment.
"There's something really symbolic about starting out the new year like this," says Bill, "I always tell Giuliana, once the clock strikes midnight, we're taking the rear view mirror off the car and we're not looking back because we're going to be done. No looking over her shoulder, no worries. We can start living life."
Giuliana previously told The Today Show that she is hoping for a "full recovery by New Year's Eve. We're planning to be in Times Square!"
Because Giuliana is a public personality, working on E! News and Fashion Police, she admits that she's in a visible position of power to talk about her plight with women and become transparent about her battle with breast cancer.
"I have an incredible job that lets me reach a lot of people," she states, "The fact that I can be a voice for women and tell them they do have options...is great. I have gotten so many 'Thank yous.' It's humbling...I've never felt I wanted to help people as much as I do now."
While she awaits surgery she's been keeping busy working on her various E! shows. A source tells Us Weekly, "Overall, she's in unbelievably great spirits. She's been working a lot. It keep her motivated."
The source adds, "They want to go into 2012 with a clean slate and put this all behind them."