Fantasia: Overdose Wasn't an Accident

August 23, 2010 By:
Fantasia: Overdose Wasn't an Accident

One would think that after suffering from an overdose, Fantasia would take a little breather from the press and work on getting her life back on track, but nope. Not Fantasia.

Fantasia, who conveniently overdosed two weeks before her new album and her reality show airdate, claims she overdosed on purpose because she wanted to die.

"I didn't have any fight in me. I didn't care about anything. I just wanted out," she tells VH1 in a new Behind the Music interview, airing 9 p.m. ET/PT Tuesday, the same day her new album, Back to Me, is released. "At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with – all of it, all of that [expletive]."

She continues: "I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle. I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can't accidentally take a whole bottle of pills."

According to People magazine, Barrino's manager, Brian Dickens, recalls finding her lying on the floor in her room. "Her emotions were extremely low," he says. "She'd been crying all day. Fantasia was just numb. Fantasia texted me, saying 'I love you.' I wrote back, 'I love you more.' Then it hit me."

"I wrote, 'You better not do anything or think about doing anything stupid.' And I left it at that. About 10 minutes later, Fantasia texted me back, and she said, 'Already did.' I went into Fantasia's room and saw her on the floor, and my heart just dropped."

Just days after she was released from the hospital she was spotted with her married boyfriend and reality show cameras following her every move. If that doesn't say 'I'm serious about improving my life,' we don't know what does.