"Teen Mom" Amber Portwood has begun serving her five year prison sentence, a decision that left many wondering if she had made the right decision.
ABC News sat down with Portwood on Wednesday to try to make sense of her decision. She was arrested in December 2011 on a felony drug charge and was then ordered by the court to complete a rehab program, submitting to regular drug testing. Or, she could serve up to 5 years in prison.
Portwood chose prison and her decision has shocked many.
This week, she turned herself in and opted for what she felt was the easier option, as she didn’t think she was strong enough to finish the rehab program on her own.
“I felt like I’d rather do my time and get it over with and make the best out of the situation that’s been handed to me. I was very depressed. I was alone. I was bitter at everybody, and I didn’t feel like that was the life that I wanted to live.”
At 22, Portwood has already made several attempts to kill herself. She cites the pressures of teen motherhood, the “fame” and scrutiny that came with the show and an over-all state of depression as factors that contributed to her downfall. “I had more than addiction problems. I had, you know, mental problems, too."
As far as her criminal record goes, she's been in trouble in the past for domestic abuse after she assaulted her daughter's father, on camera.
It is speculated that she will only have to complete half of the original sentence handed down by the judge. During her incarceration, Portwood says is going to try to make the most of it, “I’m not just gonna sit, I’m gonna do substance abuse classes, I’m gonna get my GED.”
Due to her recent string of court appearances, her time in rehab, and the fact that she has lost custody of her daughter, the 'Teen Mom" reveals she hasn’t been able to spend much time as a mother.
She told ABC that she is hoping to be able to see her daughter more while she is in prison. No word on how that’s supposed to work, but we wish her the best on her road to recovery.